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Man oh man has it been such an amazing energetic weekend!
Oh my goodness…
So many experiences and revelations, ooph, man I am exciiiiited!!
Let’s Begin!
Context
To understand the complexity of my mind, I need to first take you to my Gene Keys - aka, another term for Human Design content (as far as I can tell, anyways…. Moving on).
Allow your eyes to blur…
Ok, so now find the Red Bubble with “IQ” as the title, and “64.2” as the description. That means, that my natural intelligence in this life is, at it’s highest, Illumination, through my gift of Imagination. At it’s lowest, however, it’s Confusion…and Overthinking. This is related to the Human Design Gate 64, Line 2, which is as follows:
The potential here is to have a Brilliant Mind…. while the risk here is to basically waste all resources….. My overthinking mind is running with terror of this, at this very moment….But, I digress! The purpose here is to focus on the strength of this gate “Making sense of the past through reflection”, in line 2, “Inner development that can end the confusion over what makes sense.”
Important stuff, really. Paired with imagination, and bata bing, bata boom, we’ve got this lil psychic lady with the lucid dreaming.
The problem is, this my Gate 64.2 is a hanging gate (see below), which means that I lack the other gate (47) to create. full channel. Without the full channel, you can say that I have this energy, but I can get a bit inconsistent or off when trying to express it in it’s fullness. It also means that being around the correct others, like maybe someone with gate 47, is helpful in helping me express this innate genius (tehe).
But, without fail, regardless if I’m around others or not, as soon as I can manage to get into that meditative state, the images come in with clarity. (Though, again, I can maintain it for longer around the correct others, and as long as I’m left alone to do my thing…)
In my personal experience, the lucid dreams, visions, visual knowings - whatever rhetoric you’re comfortable with - always gives me profound clarity. And the clarity comes as such a relief to my over-anxious, over-worked mind. And, naturally, these always come when I’ve managed to reach some kind of stillness… which is rare for me. (That Detriment of “Constantly in action” is synging into my mind as I write this…).
The TL;DR is that the more out of my mind and in to my flow, the more my Innate Genius is in the driver’s seat. The less…. and the more stressed out, confused, and overall a bag of nerves I can be (filling in a bit of color based on how I actually am…).
And, fortunately for me, I had two profound experiences of this over the weekend.
Saturday
Saturday, I went for this absolutely lovely Lymphatic massage on the other side of the island. With all the stress and overthinking and emotional fucking upheaval I’ve been processing this month, I needed an assist in getting my body to de-flame and reduce some of that “stress” inflammation.
The massage went as normal, and magical, as always. I do love me a good, energetic, massage. I’m a bit of a wuss when it comes to intense, deep, tissue massages, but I could fuck with a lymphatic massage any day of the week.
I was overdue, so at first, I just felt a lot of fluid releasing from it’s “stress prisons” within various parts of my body. Same ol’ same ol. So relaxing. But, as she got to my ribs and heart space, I started to feel a different energetic sensation. In this moment, I could feel Anubis, the God of Death and Mummification, standing over me.
At this point, I was already in like a half-meditative, half-lucid dreaming like state. Not fully present in my body, but not fully dissociated either. Honestly, this is where I spend most of my “happy” time; between realms. The weight of reality has a diminished impact there, and I feel so connected to my guides, my most cherished souls, and memories of connectedness that I seldom feel in real life. It’s a beautiful place of awareness to be, really.
This is also the state that I see more things in, like entities and energies. I’m just more tuned in. It’s actually my ability to be in that state that made my lucid nightmares possible. Now, fortunately, I see a lot of really cool stuff too. Like Anubis. I’ve seen him several times before, and symbolically, it always felt like he was involved because so much of the space I work in, and will work in, is all about the death and rebirth process. Right up his, ally, really. And, if I am truly going to work in that space, I better as hell be able to go through the process, myself.
I’ve got to make sure my own heart weighs as light as a feather before I can participate in other’s paths to do the same. So, him appearing wasn’t all the strange to me. It’s been a minute since I last saw him, maybe a year or so ago, but he’s a welcome presence when he does show up.
Remember in my last post when I wrote out my lucid dream about the man on the cross symbolizing the parts of me that are currently dying, and I’ll be heading to a new plane of existence soon? Well, looks like Anubis showed up right on queue! I basically felt like he was there to guide me through this next process. Through my brief time in the underworld before moving to the next chapter.
All good in this lady’s book. I’m ready for that next chapter because being surrounded by my own dying energy is definitely not my favorite life experience to date…. though, a worthy path, regardless.
Sunday
I had the amazing luxury of meeting someone here who does Past Life Regression - Energy Alignment work. Earlier in the week, we got to talking about Astrology, Human Design, and desiring to do more work in creativity and energy instead of in data and engineering. A very kindred soul to run into. When she offered to do a session for me, I was absolutely ecstatic to say ‘yes’. Such a warm rush of a “mhm” feeling! Those moments are so juicy to me. No thinking is involved whatsoever, just this warm honey sensation of “YES”.
I’ve done one before, earlier this year, actually. It was was lovely, but it also was chilling. I’m not sure if I was entirely ready for it, really. She actually told me that my Soul Mission here was almost complete, and I’d have an “out” soon. She basically said that I had the option to stay (lol like stay alive…) but that I might not find it fulfilling once my Soul Mission was complete…..Not the sunshine and daises response that I was hoping for…. I had a lot of nightmares afterward, and it actually took a couple calls with cherished friends, and my lovely Grandma, to help me recenter. My Grandma’s perspective of that reader was that she was a newer soul, and she didn’t know how to process what she saw. But, rest assured, I was ok. I am here, in this timeline, and it’s important to keep my desire to be here front and center, and not get lost too much into the details.
I did get a lot of other things from that call, but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t take me awhile to heal from. So, I made a vow that I wouldn’t do Past Life Regression, again, unless it basically found it’s way to me, and it resonated to do so.
Clearly, my resounding ‘yes’ to do one today was exactly that! LOL so strange how fate works…..
Doing a Past Life Regression in person was actually am amazing, maybe even preferred, experience. She set up the room with Sage and Palo Santo Wood, the space fully energetically clear and welcoming. I laid down, face-up, with my eyes closed, music was on, and she got to work. The sensation felt a lot like Reiki, and I could feel her working through different parts of my body…. My mind, though, well, as you know… is quite the over-thinker. It never shuts off, never turns off, and I’ve grown very comfortable to this sensation. That said, that was the first thing she said after the session: that she spend a lot of time trying to open and release pressure in my mind…..I see some Reiki Healing sessions in my future…. She also said that I was very, very, still, so she was worried I wasn’t feeling anything… but that my eyes were moving rapidly (like how eyes move when closed shut during REM sleep). So, her guides (and mine) advised her to keep going.
…later edit…. couldn’t get myself to write out the details, so I guess the rest is meant for just me <3.